Giving up

Not that I've started, but I feel like giving up. Is that why there are so many singles around, or I've not met my girl of Serendipity? Its a question I keep asking myself. Maybe I should put more effort? Nah, I'm too tired already, 5 years into a relationship, now to go for another one, considering that I succeed is seriously too intimidating for me. So as of this week, I shall be determined to not feel the rush of adrenaline and be overwhelmed by her.

Unknown to me, temptation was lurking around the corner. This morning, my first test came in the form a bike ride. I woke up late for tutorial and clumsily stumbled into my communal hall to take-away my breakfast. It was already 0759. Obviously I'll be late for my tutorial again. However, on my way out of the cummunal hall, devil's temptation strode in for her take-away too. After an apprehensive hello and a wave, I was nearly out of the door when it struck me that. Oh no, she'll be late for her class too... If u know what I mean, Med fac is way further than Engineering blocks from Sheares hall. If I don't offer a lift, she'll be awfully late. I stood there contemplating offering a lift. I glanced over and found her standing at the counter with her take-away, she glanced back, her eyes almost pitiful (at least I hope so...). Well, I moved to offer, then i stopped. What if she rejects my offer... again... I'll never be able to concentrate for my tutorial, but I can't leave the pitiful girl there and a chance of giving her a lift where we'll strike up a nice conversation on the bike which would lead to a lunch and eventually a date and maybe, maybe she would be my girlfriend... brrr.... forget, I turned and walked off with an air of confidence. I'm a changed man.

Hansen 1, temptress 0...

Slack.