mahjong

Why is it so addictive?!!! I told myself that I shall quit for umtempth times. For every 100 bucks I lose, I win 5 bucks. Its atrocious. Why do I even bother. I think its beacuse I'm easily tempted by the thoughts of easy money and the thrill. I must learn to be resolute. I must learn to stand on my own feet. I must learn to stand on my own feet. I knew it since young. I was never the one who won monopoly, nor soccer betting, nor simple lucky draws. It was always my brothers, my friends... Lady luck was never on my side with money matters. My hand seems to have holes. No money stays long, and no money comes in by luck. I still play...

Time to stop, Hansen. Sad as it is, you need some resolution. What happened to doing well for studies, perfecting Japanese. What happen to your dreams? Talk about resolution. Learn to play the piano... until grade 6. Learn Aikido... until black belt. Take s-papers, apply for scholarship... got none. Apply for US university... never go. Nothing went all the way. Learn Japanese... it better last, my dear Hansen... Do something right in life. Have some resolution. You have other ways of finding relief from the mundane life, there's always the animation world. Leave mahjong for the lucky people. Stay out of it... Save money.

Slack.