A long Monday

2 tests i've yet to be confident enough to sit for, 5 tuition assignments, 2 labs and their pre-lab reports, tonnes of tutorials, and readings to do this week! Not to mention committee commitments. Damn... How many things can someone pack into his week. It does not help that your firlfriend needs to talk to you for at least 2 hours a day, and neither does it help that I want to talk to her for twice as long. Hehe... It does not help that I've an anime I desperately want to finish watching. Sigh!

I couldn't even get myself out of bed for my 8am lecture this morning. I nearly missed the second lecture at 10. Oh gawd, I hope this week passes quickly and at the end of it I can feel happy and satisfied, feeling shiok of my accomplishments. Ka-chink... 500 bucks in my pocket. Ta-da... straight As for my mid-term tests. Ka-boom... A+ lab reports. Only then can I settle down to a weekend of anime, girlfriend and me! Yay!

Slack.

Tifa

Happy blog finally. I brought my grandma to see a chinese sinseh on Tuesday to help her recuperate from her broken leg. Damn the lousy driver who knocked her down. Anyway, I brought my latop along. At first, I had only wanted to preview the FFVII: Advent children I had gotten from Ying Kiat, but once I started, I could not stop. It was tantalising me. There was the ubquitous story line of good vs evil but what was really drawing me to this wonderful anime was... TIFA. OMg! When I played the game, I had always thought that the most beautiful and perfect character there was Aerith. She was like holy mama... but then for this movie, she was nothing but a ghostly presence. Nice still, but paling in comparison to the wonderful Tifa. You must think I'm crazy, lusting over an anime character. Go watch it for yourself, you will then understand my standpoint. Heh. Woohoo! Thumbs up for SquareEnix!

Slack.

mahjong

Why is it so addictive?!!! I told myself that I shall quit for umtempth times. For every 100 bucks I lose, I win 5 bucks. Its atrocious. Why do I even bother. I think its beacuse I'm easily tempted by the thoughts of easy money and the thrill. I must learn to be resolute. I must learn to stand on my own feet. I must learn to stand on my own feet. I knew it since young. I was never the one who won monopoly, nor soccer betting, nor simple lucky draws. It was always my brothers, my friends... Lady luck was never on my side with money matters. My hand seems to have holes. No money stays long, and no money comes in by luck. I still play...

Time to stop, Hansen. Sad as it is, you need some resolution. What happened to doing well for studies, perfecting Japanese. What happen to your dreams? Talk about resolution. Learn to play the piano... until grade 6. Learn Aikido... until black belt. Take s-papers, apply for scholarship... got none. Apply for US university... never go. Nothing went all the way. Learn Japanese... it better last, my dear Hansen... Do something right in life. Have some resolution. You have other ways of finding relief from the mundane life, there's always the animation world. Leave mahjong for the lucky people. Stay out of it... Save money.

Slack.

Feeling good

I finally recovered from my 2nd flu attack today, so I'm feling much better now. Compared to my delirious state last night. In fact, I gave tuition to my first tuition student today. Its been such a long time since I thought someone. I never found someone as attentive as him. I'm impressed. Somehow, my voice usually have a hypnotic effect, strangely he listened on. He's a great student, with great ambitions, and hardworking too. Although he didn't do very well in the first semester, his grades for the recent tests shows his potential and I'm glad I found him. The mother was also very respectful, and kept calling me "teacher this, teacher that (in chinese)" I guess Chinese nationals are similar to Jap nationals in the way that they're very polite to the teachers... unlike Singaporeans... bleah.

Although he's in PJC, did combined science in Sec school and couldn't even enter JC for the first 3 months. I've faith in this guy. He's set to soar! Bwahaha... Easy money...

Time to brush up on my own studies... 1 week mid-term break here I come!

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Gloomy weekend

I saw a post. How a girl lost her life because of a guy. Why? My mom has always told me that guys are never worth losing a life for. When she found out about how I broke up with Minyi, she warned me... be careful. I never really register it and always thought that no one nowadays would actually do that. That was why I was so shocked that it would actually happen to an NUS girl. Pitiful.

Life is not easy, but no one said death would be... Life is always greener on the other side.

Slack.

A month has passed me by... lonely

A month has passed and I've not written. Too many things to say but always had a friend to hear. Now, however, I feel lonely once again. Once again, I shall have to lend a listening ear. I've been back for nearly a month now. 12 Aug 2005. At first she was there to listen to me. She was the one always scolding me for not sending her an email everyday. With every email I send her, goes my complaints and feelings for the day. This time round, I've not heard from her for 5 days and counting...

Not that there's much to say anymore as I'm so obsessed in my own world of anime, studies, work and learning Jap, but I wish she could reply me. It feels like I don't matter anymore. Not in the block, not amongst my friends, perhaps not amongst my closest friends and not to mention her. Sometimes I think its just the thing for me. Get my studies straighten out, do my Jap, clear my anime backlog. Nevertheless, sometimes, I feel lonely, really really lonely.

Slack.